The last few weeks have been pretty awful. The depression is back, I haven't been sleeping through the night so I'm exhausted during the day and have trouble getting out of bed in the morning, I have some overall body achiness that won't go away, mental confusion, and I've been pretty irritable to say the least. I haven't been writing because, well, I'm just not really sure what to say at this point. I haven't been to the gym at all in weeks, and that is hard to admit. I haven't even been doing yoga. I have been eating healthy (with the exception of the Dairy Queen blizzard I had last night as a last ditch effort to cheer myself up) so that has kept me on track as far as my weight goes, but I have just been feeling...blah.
I've been reading the book Clean by Alejandro Junger. I'm not entirely sure if my depression, fatigue, and pain have to do with the foods that I'm eating or nutrients I'm not getting, but I figured it couldn't hurt to try the program. There's a three day elimination diet which, for me, would only include cutting out a few things that I love (like strawberries, yogurt, and bananas) and then a few weeks of a cleanse which includes protein shakes in the morning and evening, and a healthy lunch and snacks from a list of approved foods. At this point, I am ready to try anything to feel better. I checked with my doctor and she approved it, and said that she and her husband actually do the same cleanse once a year! So, my hopes are high. I can't take another few weeks of feeling this way.